Our Angel

I thought i write a little about our little angel in heaven. We had struggled for a year in a half to concive our second child. With the help of a fertility durg called Clomid. We found out that i was pregnant on january 12th. I was in shock at first but about a week later we were lucky enough to have our first appt. Here in Germany we get to have ultrasounds at every appt. So we got to see our little baby bean, Corey even said he saw the heartbeat. We scheduled our next appt for Feb 22 i would be 10weeks4days. We went in having no idea anything was wrong. Durning the ultrasound the doctor got very very quite, which is not like him. Hannah had come along with us so she could bond with us durning what should have been such a happy time. Well it wasnt till Hannah said she had to go potty that we had relized something was very wrong. Corey got up to take her to the bathroom when the doc told Corey that he shouldnt leave and told me to get dressed. My heart broke at that very second. I knew i was not going to be having a baby any longer. He had found no hearbeat and told us to come back on Monday to check again. We had all weekend to think and process. We went back in on monday and was told that the baby still had no heartbeat. So that day, February 25, 2008 all are hope and dreams were gone. 2 days later i had sugery to remove the baby. That was it, he was gone. That whole pregnancy,well the 3months i was pregnant, i really thought it was a boy.. We will forever remember our angle. We are so grateful to have been blessed with him, even if it was only for 3 months. Today a little over 3 months later. I still think about that experience everyday. But life has gone on and were dealing with it. I have faith in our Lord that this happened for a reason. There is a plan for us all, and though i wish my baby was still with me im grateful for the things that i have gone through. I will be with my lost baby someday.. Goodbye sweet angel, mommy and daddy and your big sister love you for always.